Daily Stresses

Jim left this morning going to Delhi (very close to our hometown) to work. Ty and I had planned to go with him, but we really don't have the money. He had a cutback at work and we have a lot of things to be saving up for.

First of all, my friend Taylor is having a baby boy and her shower is the end of this month. I have bought her several things for the baby, but I have also been asked to make her shower cake. Unfortunately, I don't have everything I need to take her cake... I want to try a few new things with this one to make it really special and I am going to have to buy several things.

Second, my Ty man's FIRST birthday is next month!! I'm so excited! I want him to have a great party (even though he won't remember it). I have already ordered his invitations and dinnerware for the party. I still have to buy his presents and a few odd and ends... I am going to make his cake, too. We are having a farm theme. His invitations have cows, horses, ducks, and pigs on them. I am hoping to have a really awesome party for him. I'm really nervous about making his cake because I want to sculpt cows, pigs, and ducks to put on it.

So, I have been trying to find a job to help with all of our added expenses. I must have applied at 50 companies in the last month and I have only gotten one call-back. Unfortunately, the hours I would have had to work wouldn't work out with having a baby. It was very hard for me to turn that job down because it payed VERY well. But, I just couldn't do it. It's just driving me crazy that I can't find ANYTHING!!! I didn't finish college... Yet anyway.... But even to get a simple secretary job here, you need a bachelor's degree! And even entry level positions here require experience... I only have experience in sales and waitressing.... I have so many things working against me:
1. I have a baby, so I can only work M-F 6:30- 5:30.
2. Little to no experience (depending on the job I am applying for)
3. Minimal education.

All I can do is laugh about this. Because if I don't laugh, I will cry. I have been so stressed out lately. I don't know what I am going to do. But I did finally surrender it to God. I prayed that he would take it all into his hands because I know that I can't do this alone. I really need help. So, if anyone knows where a good job is for an unqualified, undertrained worker.. LET ME KNOW!!!

I plan on going back to school as soon as Ty starts school. We can't afford to pay for daycare and tuition... So I have to wait.

Another big issue weighing on my mind these days is my TERRIBLE case of the 'baby fever'.....

(to be cont. )
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My heart is in the Gulf of Mexico

Doesn't my baby look like a little marshmallow in his cute lil outfit? LOVE, LOVE, LOVE IT!

I am really missing Jim. it has been a week, but it feels like a month! He may be able to come home thurs for a few days between motors. I really hope so! Nothing interesting has been happening. But, i did go to Daina's Sat and take pics of Ty. Daina and I had a fun girls day out. Charity kept Ty for me. We went and ate in River Ranch (the really nice part of town). We also did some shopping. She did all of the shopping though.. LoL. I did buy a few cake baking things. That was fun.

I get my braces off i n 2 weeks. Im super excited. It's been a year and a half since I have seen my teeth with no braces! As soon as I get them off, i plan on going job hunting!! I'm excited to get out of the house; however, im not looking forward to leaving my baby! I'm gonna be so sad. Because in all likelyhood, he is the only baby I will ever have. And I want to spend as much time as i can with him....